Me Time

I realise there is such a thing as too much me time. I've been getting kinda bored with myself recently, running out of things to do and nua-ing has lost its novelty. It feels like I've been in uniSim since forever and the end is not in sight even though this is my last year.  :(

他眼里有你

我攀登了万仞的高冈
荆棘扎拦了我的衣裳
我向缥缈的云天外望
上帝，我望不见你！


我向坚厚的地刻里掏
捣毁了蛇龙们的老巢
在无底的深潭里我叫
上帝，我听不到你！


我在道旁见一个小孩
活泼，秀丽，褴楼的衣衫
他叫声妈，眼里亮着爱
上帝，他眼里有你！


--徐志摩

5 MINS FROM 2012 and I'm alone at home

This holiday season has been whooo! Someone give me a slap if I ever volunteer to make calendars from scratch again, attempt to cook a 5 course dinner for 6, make cupcakes for 40 people in 2 days, and then plan a thanksgiving dinner for 111 people. Suffice it to say I am now very convinced that I perform best under pressure.

Honestly, today does not even feel like New Year's Eve. How should Christmas Eve feel anyway? How should one feel when a single movement of the minute hand on the clock makes a difference between 2011 and 2012?

Time, time, where do you go

December has once again creeped up on us, bringing to some the anticipation of merrymaking and others a sense of lost time. It has always been my favourite month: gatherings, food, presents and songs. It means that however hard a year I had, it was coming to an end; it also means that I was going to spend time with people whom I had no opportunity to do so with in the year. 

This year though, just seems different. Minimal anticipation and a great deal of sense of loss. I feel I am squandering my time away even as I type this. 

I suppose I should go forward with the intention to celebrate Christmas for its true meaning and not linger over my lack of enthusiasm for the season, and remember that everything that happened this year was in His plan. I just cannot help feeling a tad depressed though. Seeing people talk about their futures on social networking sites makes everything worse. 

So school's finally over

and I still can't believe that we're halfway through November already! Where on earth did the last 10 months go to? I feel like I haven't done anything meaningful or useful. On the other hand, I have some vague memories of slogging away before a computer in an office earlier this year. I need to chronicle my life more systematically, however boring it may sometimes.

Anyway, just a really random thought, since when were we allowed to start our sentences with 'but'? Or was 'because' the forbidden one?

J.R.R. Tolkein

"All that is gold does not glitter, not all those who wander are lost. The old that is strong does not wither, deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, a light from the shadows shall spring. Renewed shall be blade that was broken, the crownless again shall be king.”

La Noche

I only seem inspired to write at night, when my door's closed, the air-con's on and I should be asleep. Like I need the whole day to settle myself down; like my soul only comes alive then.